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Chapter 2: Who told love can happen only once?The spring of new life

Ted came running with bated breath with his anxiety clearly visible on his face .I lay on the floor whimpering out of pain and dread….I wept and tried to speak to Ted but in vain my voice lay caught up in my throat….

“what happened my dear?”he asked helping me …

I screech (fear turned my voice worse)..”.The lady….that lady…”.He moved to check…I grabbed his hand “don’t leave me”I cried…

I rested my head on his lap.I felt peaceful his eyes were scanning out of the window.These cops never change .

I gaze at his handsome face his beautiful features…Those brilliant eyes ,the small curve called lips…the lovely hair that kept falling on his forehead and moving forth with the sway of breeze.

It reminded me of Sam’s words”Why didn’t you fall in love with Ted Amy? he is more handsome than trainer .he loves you more than any guy in this world…”.

Now I ask myself why I didn’t love him in the first place…He now turned to me….”why are you staring at me?”he asked…

“Don’t I have the right to admire you Ted?,” I asked….

he smiled fondling my hair with his hand…..

“ted can you get me that lady’s case file,”I asked.

“Already you have enough nightmares,we cops will do our job ,take rest sweety,”He said.

I know he cares….

.I dismissed my thoughts….Ted is my friend not my love.I slept.

after few months

I stay in my granny’s house an old fashioned large house .Me ,my granny and our servants stay in there.

I disliked the house as well as the place initially.The house is too large with a pond at the center of the house.I begged dad to allow me to stay in the city with him but he refused to and insisted as it is one of the most prestigious college in our country.

I hated it anyway .I had to travel for about two hours to reach the college.I miss my Ted ,my Sam….

I just now texted them in WhatsApp but still miss them…

I look around the room,,,,I realized I belong to some royal family.the room was too large too ornate .I was not allowed to take all my books with me…but I selectively chose few dear ones…I arranged them on the racks…

the large pond at the center of the house is not bad after all….there is no shop nearby …..no cafe’s……no malls …and above all the connectivity is really fragile.

how am I gonna exist in here?

the first day of college….

I skim through my wardrobe…I select a dress..then threw it aside….. the other one…then threw it aside.

At last chose a red one…. in red I always get more compliments…

I glance at the mirror the girl who stared back is okay.I never wore any makeup and even today I followed the suit.

I took my bag a small one….my servants gave me my lunch I told them thanks and pecked a kiss on my granny cheeks and left to college….

traveling wore me out but anticipation and anxiety filled me..the first day in college gave me with goosebumps.

I entered the college a very vast one….I must tell…awesome….I walked in large trees everyone was walking inside ….I walked expecting a new life…

suddenly someone called “hey red color girl”.

I turned a group of guys….ragging I knew…

I remembered the advice from sam and ted keep yourselves down neither be fragile or too much confident….

I walked towards them ….I smiled…an old habit….

I can realize my knees shivering.

There were about 6 to 7 guys and 4 girls.

the girl wearing black salwar was really gorgeous but a little hike of makeup.

‘good morning madam what is your name?’A guy asked

‘Amy Krishna Varma ‘I replied.

‘are you Raja Ravi Varma ‘s granddaughter ?’ he asked

“no “I replied

“Hindu or Christian?what a name half Christian half Hindu?”another asked

I looked at them puzzled…

my eyes fell on a tall handsome guy …he looks uninterested….

“do you know to dance,”they asked

“no”I replied.

“what is your father doing?”a guy asked.

“he is a CBI officer”I replied.

“Don’t lie,”they said…

I asked them”can you give your mobile?’

I googled out my dad….it was there and I showed my photo in his family .

I was sweating furiously….when I did it…from where did I get the courage I didn’t know.

‘Ok, sister you can go….If you need any help you can ask brothers…should we escort you?’ they asked.

“no thanks, “I replied…..

I walked away it was then a car nearly knocked me down…..the girl who drove the car gave me a stern look and drove away.

it was she who drove on the wrong side and she didn’t ask even a sorry…I walked away cursing her….I disliked her at the very sight.

I walked to the class …

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I felt someone caress me….I turn around to find Sam I did something which I would never do in my normal sense…I was on my knees ,Sam was standing….I look up to him with tears overflowing my eyes…..”Sam,”I cried hugging him.”I …..”I said….”Dont explain I know”he said…..I cried embracing him….the grief which was piled up in my heart flowed out of my eyes…..

“Sam,I cant….I cant ….I cant live through this grief “I cried .I wept and wept….

He stroked my hair like a kid….with his kind eyes peering into my grief …I was suffocating unable to share my grief or feelings with anyone…

I sobbed harder until the grief melted down…

“how did you know ?”I asked to him…

“I am not blind Amy…all the fuss you made around this trainer I guessed”he said trying his best to look stern….

“you look funny”I said.fighting hard to suppress my laughter…”I know…”he said”pathetic,everytime I try to look cross people end up laughing at me.

“return the book “he said .

“omg…I forgot “I said running away fast….My heart felt less heavy.

My life changed……

I was in my old self…..I dont cogitate much about trainer now…my leisure were mostly spend with Sam ….which indeed evoked many gossips which neither of us bothered.

I stand on the boxing ring…first time with Vicky…the new trainer(Mr pig,that is what myself and Sam call the new trainer) supports Vicky.

His eyes scrutinize me…he, brandished his fists..I look too small in front of him.It was only now I recognized how small I am?perhaps how big he is?

the trainer blew the whistle…..

I swallowed hard……He tried to punch me…I dodged….I can feel the sweat tickling my shoulders….fear en gripped me..

he smashed me with a evil grin spreading on his ugly bloated black lips….his exhilaration explicitly visible on his potato face….he ended up smashing me hard….blood spurted out of my mouth.Mr pig tried to pull him back but he kept on hitting me…my vision was blurring I fell down but he smashed me again.

I can hear girls giggling…….Claire was among them….I cant believe…

I glimpsed someone jump into the ring pulled Vicky from me and was hitting him….

My best friend Sam….

I close my eyes….I nearly had a broken bone….mom was bewildered …..Vicky was suspended.

“I wish he was dismissed”I said slowly raising from bed.

Sam gave out a laugh….”I too wish my dear”

“why does Vicky hate me so much ?”I asked.

“that is what even I am wondering”he said looking concerned.

Ted came with food….he was feeding me….”ted I am strong enough to have on my own,I am not a kid”.I said.

“you are always a kid to me Amy” he said…

I am lucky to have Ted and Sam in my life……

I sit there speaking to Ted…the power went off…but for our bad luck the inverter too didnt work..Mom and Dad went for a marriage reception.

Ted went to check the inverter and bring a candle…..

I suddenly perceived  a shiver down my spine….the air was turning cold…….I cant walk yet…

I wondered Why is it so cold isn’t it summer?

The air turned so cold I was unable to breath…..I felt someone sitting behind me I turn but there wasn’t anyone…..
I felt someone drag my legs….I fall down…….I cry…..the lady stares at me from the windows…..those large blue eyes peer into me……I shriek I cry

 

 

 

 

 

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It’s nearly dawn but I am already cycling on my way to school leisurely pedaling underneath an array of large flowering trees who greet me by showering the lovely blossoms with the tiniest sway of breeze depicting trajectory curves on fallen flowers which ornate the road with its splendid color but my heart lacks this color.I slowly pace forward soaked in the beauty of this magnificent enchantress, nature whose presence has always diluted my agony.
Waking up early ,cycling and isolation are things which Amy detested before but now they are my beloved acquaintances.I have changed a lot since the trainer left the school.

I was not able to tackle or perhaps comprehend the fact that trainer left the school.I sobbed for hours,ran around with tears overflowing my eyes.I ran to the watchman desperately inquiring if the trainer left,but to my greatest dismay ,he left few minutes before.

I felt desolate standing there stark staring at the empty road which extended …unable to react my heart sobbed…..I ran like a mad woman hither and thither just telling myself he wouldn’t have left me….he won’t leave me….I told myself…the despair and inconsolable grief overcame my heart.My courage was a futile loser.

My heart broke into a million pieces .The fact he hasn’t bothered to inform me hurts me the most.I lost my cheer,my happiness,my glee.It has been several days since I had a proper meal.I am neither able to sleep nor able to live .I feel a suffocation a pain that seems to gnaw on my soul.

every place, every corner, every second ,my heart grieves in departure.Did I love him?

I must have or else why does my heart mutilate?.

Is this the pain inflicted by first love?

and now after several months, the ache remains intact….

I cycle to school trying my best to forget the past and live my life.

In school……I pass the corridor…the memories of him,,his perfume…how I bumped into him?..his smile his touch lingered on my heart…

tears race down my cheeks unknowingly…..

I was inattentive in classes….memories kept ensuing penetrating my soul like a dagger piercing it …

but now I learnt to slowly move on….

‘Amy can you take my book from my table’asked my teacher.

I advance in order to fetch the book…as I pace forward my eyes fell on the empty office of the trainer.

I slipped inside,the day I met the trainer resonated back to me…..I caressed the desk smiling as the memories resonated back to me.

but something was inscribed in there ,,,,I looked hard….at the same place I took the gloves….the same place his fingers brushed mine….the first sight….the spring of my first love….

I looked hard.It was inscribed I lost my heart here

tears engulfed my eyes….I fell on my knees sobbing pathetically….

I felt someone’s hand caressing my hair…..

 

how to lose weight,,,,

Just five tips friends to lose weight…It works..I assure you..

Step 1 FALL IN LOVE:

You may be looking onto the above line quizzically…wondering if I am crazy..How can falling in love makes you lose weight….I assure you you will lose several pounds….

if you fall in love obviously you will lose your peace of mind….your inclination to food will certainly drop….you would be hovering over phone or else wondering what your bf of gf be doing now..a quarrel…obsession..or perhaps possessiveness…..or breakup…..obviously food lays forgotten…you lose your weight and peace..if you cant skip to second step.261866.gif

Step 2PREPARE FOOD YOU CERTAINLY DISLIKE:

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Step 3DRINK A LOT OF WATER:

yeah for sure drinking water helps…especially before you have food…..drink as much as water you can….it flushes out toxins in your body…(atleast then you can quench your hunger)download (3)

Step 4EXERCISE…EXERCISE:

working out really helps….running ,jogging ,cycling….or perhaps gym burns calories…..at times may turn out to be boring….jogging with your friend helps us to reduce the boredom…..images (1)

Step 5EAT LESS:

if you wanna desperately lose weight…you must eat less and by the way eat food with very less calories….reduce sugar content in food

1.DRINK HOT WATER IN EMPTY STOMACH OR BANANA STEM JUICE.

2.DONT SKIP YOUR BREAKFAST.

3.EAT ON TIME.

4.EAT ADEQUATE AMOUNT

5.DONT EAT TO SATISFY YOUR CRAVINGS.

6.DONT SYMPATHIZE YOURSELF THAT YOU ARE GOING WITHOUT FOOD.

7.DRINK LOT OF WATER.

8.REDUCE SNACKS AS FAR AS POSSIBLE.

9.DONT FORGET TO BURN YOUR CALORIES BY PHYSICAL EXERCIZE.

10.EAT LOW CALORIE DINNER.

this helped me…….I think it will help you too…..

 

 

 

 

 

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I can feel my blood spurt away from me….my thick blood dampening my clothes…weak and shivering…I close my eyes….darkness blind me….I can feel the lady inching closer…I am dying I knew…..

I lose….

The light tickles me……Amy….Amy…..I can feel tears dropping on my hand….I slowly open my eyes……….My head is throbbing with pain……I look around….the vision is initially blurred the room gradually becomes visible….the trainer is sitting near me…his eyes were swollen out of crying….his clothes stained with blood…

Did he cry???why//////my head hurts…..the memories resonate back to me…..the lady she is here……I sob I scream….I am scared…the trainer looked at me….”Amy….Amy dear what happened? are you alright?”he asked with his voice failing in panic….

I weep in pain and fear….hugging him…She is here…she is here/…..I whine….cuddling in his embrace…I stare into his eyes…she is here save me please…help me…. she will kill me….

“no one will harm my Amy,nothing….there is no one here….relax …relax…I am there for you…”he said….”she is there”I said weeping desperately…”dear,relax….don’t cry, Amy…I am there for you…Amy…..don’t cry baby,,”he said…clasping me closer….whereas I lie clinging on him….I felt safe….

“You can leave her,we are here to take care of her,”said my English teacher stern..”Don’t leave me alone…”I cried….I was hallucinating and by the way completely soaked in fear.

he held me closer”I will never leave you, Amy, never,”he said…ignoring the crowd standing near us….

slowly I came to my real self the whole school is staring at us…..we drift apart…..but my head stings in pain….

“Amy.What happened to you?”asked Claire…I narrated her the whole incident…but she didn’t believe me …I knew she wont….”but Amy,”she said”the trainer was really panicked when he saw you in blood”…”the way he ran…god he is the best”

I didn’t know what to perceive….I caressed my head…the strange memories….

I sit down in lawn under the chestnut tree…my trepidation gnawing my courage…I am terrified perhaps confused….I look into nature which has always given me comfort…but strange silence enraptured my soul….”Amy”a voice called out…..Sam, I smile….”how are you ?”he asks….”fine”I reply but it is a lie….

I narrated him what happened …but he didn’t laugh….or blame me for hallucinations,,,instead, he said…the trainer and I saw someone pass away from your side..I did search for that but didn’t find anyone…..we believe you Amy he said……as he walked away….

when I reach home….it invited a lot of fuss,,,,mom started crying…dad never cried but he can’t stand to see me hurt…Ted didn’t choose to return home…he stayed in my house…because he cants bear to leave my side in such a condition….

I am happy don’t know why some part of my heart believed he loves me..his embrace his care….god I am lost….I love him for sure…

I smile like insane…every time without any specific reason,…

The cut was deep…I took two days off…..

the third day…..I reached school…Claire was in tears…

I asked,”What happened, dear?”

she said,”Trainer left our school”.

“What,” I asked?….

“he left just now,”she said…..

Tears flow down my eyes…..

 

 

my princess

What is she??

A nymph or a fairy…

or a maiden of  darkest sorcery ,

who allured me with her enchanting witchery…

 

those watery blue eyes..

that spellbinding looks..

make me skim in a dream…

as I lay bewitched in her captivating charm..

 

Oh gracious heaven,

Is she a princess

of some heavenly land…

or perhaps from Atlantis.

 

what is that ?

in her ravishing looks..

that makes me astray//

 

persuading me to crave

to be her prince

by her side I feel

more like a frog prince..

 

her golden curls….

which carelessly decends down

her fair shoulders….

crushed my fragile heart…

 

Is she a human,,,

or perhaps a celestial being..

never have I in my petite life

come across such profound elegance

 

she walks by me..

sits by my side.

I pester up courage…

but my voice did fail…

 

I asked her…

Will you be my queen,

 

and rule over my heart,

will you provide me the honor

to be yours,

 

she gave me a blank stare….

slowly her divine voice

erupted from her throat…

that sounded

Sorry I am

already the Queen

of an other heart.

 

dont be sad you will

surely find a better bride

than me….

I would be glad if you meet my King…

……

I walk away

cursing under my breath

she is no princess

must be a stupid bitch.

or treacherous witch

in a disguise….

-anagha.M

 

 

 

 

 

 

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what is that I  feel….possessiveness or insecurity ..Does he love me ???I dont know…Am I jealous ,Do I nurture envy or hatred towards a girl I never knew ????yes is the answer.

Am I crazy????Why do I love him?….I am drawn towards him like a magnet attracted to its core….love turns me insane…I lost my sane self ….

I desperately wish she wasnt his girlfriend??why do I wish like this??I am angry annoyed and by the way disturbed , upset,,,,

I was  soaked in my anticipation until a guy called out”HI”he said reluctantly…”hi “I replied …He smiled at me with a warmth of an old friend..I felt good..”what is your name?”he asked.

“amy”I replied”yours??”.

“Sam “he replied….

Another few guys accompanied him…..”hi, “an other one said shaking my hand I smile,,,,a few grin…

their eyes scanned me head to foot and they pestered me with comments how brilliant my eyes are…and how I wonderful the curls of my hair looked…..’flirts….I knew …but what can i do???.’. ….I am a joker here…I felt like a dog…feeling more and more uncomfortable every passing second….havent they seen girls before…Why do they look at me like I am sort of alien…?

A tall guy nearly fell on me…I gave him a stern look… . Sam pushed the guy aside and stood next to me…his eyes asked me sorry…I gave him an its OK look…..It was then I understood we both conversed without speaking…a strange understanding,a lovely friendship lingered in our hearts.

that stupid bully Vicky came up to me…”Amy this is not the place for little kids,,,,oh dear how will this tiny face look if I smash it…I cant wait”He said….

I can feel blood boiling beneath my skin….anger taking its toll.

“Really Vicky…Lets see”I replied…

thank god …the trainer entered….making everyone disperse ..I stood next to SAM….a glimpse of his mobile made my heart deluge in dismay.

Okay the first exercise skipping……trainer gave a rope to me I can feel his clothes slightly brush me….making thousand live butterflies quiver in my stomach when he stood near me,,,…and slowly whispered in my ear”That girl is my sister”…..

I stood there staring he left me confused…what did he tell me???/how did he know??///Christ in heaven does he loves me…

I stood there stunned unable to comprehend what is happening here…unable to realize or judge…

I skipped hard…I did it much better than any guy just because I just want to be perfect in his eyes…..

Trainer smiled at me…he is proud of me….I cant help myself from grinning….The number of push ups I did was more than anyone else….thanks to Ted who compelled me to work out.

Sam was happy…Trainer came up to me….he caressed my hair….”good Amy…that is impressive” he said..smiling at me….I lose myself in his grin.

Vicky groaned”Girls can skip….whatever… she is gonna be smashed in the ring..and I cant wait to beat this girl into pulp”.

I look upon  to the trainer.He looked angry…he replied”Mind your words…or else I will chuck you out of the class lets see Vicky who is gonna be smashed?”…..

the trainer patted on my shoulders..his touch makes me tremble..You have the qualities of a good boxer…..making me blush red…his brown eyes..oh god what sorcery does he do???/why do I lay bewitched in him…

I reached class with a floating heart….I was then I remembered I left  my bag pack in the boxing hall…..holy….I  ran back…It was empty and perhaps dark…..I switched on the light….the light flickered but went off fast…What the hell it was working really well few minutes back….it is dark a bit scary….I searched my bagpack…but it was missing….but suddenly the door closed ……the cold wind gushed through my clothes though all the windows were closed….I didnt know what was happening.but I can felt a strange sense a foreboding….panic filled my heart…terror captured my soul..

the dread overcame me…fear gripped me hard…I felt strange….I tried to call for help but no voice came out….I felt someone pass behind me…I turn around but there wasnt a soul…..but I felt a presence….a strong presence////sweat rolled down my skin…..

I must be bold,,,,I told myself..Amy be strong I reminded myself

the smell of blood increased….the stench turned nearly unbearable…my eyesight blurred….I can feel adrenaline pouring out in my veins…..tear skips my eyes..I sob silently….I run trying my best to open the door but it is locked…I sob I cry…I call out for help but nobody turns up….

I felt someone call “amy”….I turn around….I saw a lady…excuse me…I asked….do you know who locked it….???how come you are here???I asked ….but she didnt reply…..I inched closer to her….excuse me…I called out…….

she turned//…..my heart nearly stopped…..the lady…the murdered lady…..I flinched unable to react my hands and legs turned numb stiffened….she moved towards me with that peering glance….that eyes…..which haunted me….now…I cower before her…I run just under the power of adrenaline she followed me…I run faster…I slipped and thrashed my head against a metal table..the lady smiles she moves closer…I can feel my blood flow away from me….tickling down my clothes…I felt my life sucked out of me….I close my eyes…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

my Prince

I have always been

soaked in my books…

treading through pages..

trailing through backstages…

 

I hasten,perhaps dart

like a racer…galloping..

every stages …scampering

without a pause I sprint

behind my worldly accomplishments…

 

never did I gaze…never did I care

never did I look ….in between my pages..

your silent gaze and your inclination

for being my love lays brushed aside…

 

All those days you pursued me..

I refused to pay heed…

for all that remained in my head

was a rabbit race in proving I am adroit….

 

sorry was never a word….

for now its too late ….

for a apologize to mend ‘

to the tattered heart…

but you forgave me ….dear

 

I swear never did I know

you loved me before…

perhaps  I was in love

with you all along…

 

not an infatuation I know,,,

Never before this fondness intimacy

this attachment my beloved ..

never with anyone I assert..

 

like a dream you flowed ,

into my heart ,

Filling the void…

making me complete …as a whole

 

you marched down the hill

In your gaze I lay ensnared

those brilliant blue eyes…

did make me gasp

 

I stood there captivated in your charm

as you slipped the ring into my hand

and I stole your second name

my prince my king….