Fathers day?love u dad.

Never have I expressed my love for daddy,because I always assumed showing how much I care wasnt cool,or simply didnt hassle.My daddy is the best must be an easy fancy of a daughter ,for I do know every dad loves their kid.

I am indeed like every other kid out there,but I am not scared of daddy ,Am I not ?well that is a hypothetical question.I am not scared of dad however afraid if my actions can hurt him.(that is a better answer)

Dad may be a three letter word,

for I am sturdy once I spell these three letters…

Dont mess with me I will complain to my daddy….was my words to half the set of bully’s in my preschool .

but my dad taught me to kick their ass

instead of nugatory laments.

I did fancy  things,

but never did I tell him what I need.

because even before I expressed a slightest inclination ,

may be cause of strange telepathy.

It would have assembled before me,

 nay am I allowed to read books

 rather than those filthy academics,

but still he bought me harry potter

and several other story books,

daddy is aware that I sneak out ,

and always breach his rules,

but still graciously ignore my mistakes

coz he know I’ll perish without reading.

Yes ,he is hot tempered no denying it,

but he is still my three lettered magic.

love you daddy!!!!!

I remember in an interview I was asked a hypothetical question every time I answer they asked pursued more making it harder…then I was out of answers I said “Ill ask my dad he will know what to do”I was sure they might reject me,but they smiled ,they were taken aback by my answer,they strained me a lot….and I blurted it out the most inappropriate answer……but luck would have it or unfortunately I was selected.

 

but that is  what I do when things merely get out of hand.well he is my expedient ,for I know whatever happens my dad would never turn me down.

My dad is a person who sacrificed all his life for the sake of us.He would have afforded to live in a big house with much more luxury if he didnt favor  to provide us the best school in town.

but when I get scoldings my dad and mom stands united(I cant deny the fact I cause more than an acceptable number of trouble).

“every super hero has a world to save.But I am the world for my superhero,my Dad”

Well ,I am still a toddler for my dad.Anyway dad always know what is right for his little girl.

 

 

 

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unbounded 21

I walked through the stony path of my colossal house. The eerie shadows of large stony walls which once induced foreboding now gave me a strange sense of solace.

I climbed wearily into the house, the servants have left I hope.I found my wrinkled pale old granny sitting in a rocking chair near the pillar in the living . I turned around to realize how narrow minded I was not to have admired architectural significance of my house. The living consists of four large pillars engraved in stone with a high ceiling .The ceiling was decorated with ravishing paintings which looked familiar but not being a good painter I was not able to infer what it meant.

“Amy,you are back home”granny asked.

“Yes”I acquiesced averting my glare from the ceiling.

“Ted was searching for you?”she informed resuming her work.

“oh,did he return “I enquired.

“yes I did”Ted interjected walking into the living,he wore a ruffled grey Tshirt  “looks like someone has left you a parcel”

“Really,let me have a look”I insisted grabbing the parcel from him .

I ripped apart its cover to find an amazon kindle.

“Wow”I yelped examining kindle .

Ted picked a note which slipped from the parcel.

“To my dearest girl who love to read,wish you a happy birthday.”Ted read aloud

“Is today your birthday?”he interrogated.

“So it is not your gift” I asked.

“No”he denied”I nay had the merest idea today was your birthday”.

“It must be daddy’s gift”I chattered cheerfully.

“Absolutely not”he exploded with the colour draining from his face.

“They can’t sent you gifts or speak to you for now”he added with a tone which meant I can’t argue any further.

“I am tired,I have to leave.”I sniffled treading towards my room closing my door behind me.

I place Abhi’s teddy bear and kindle near to each other wondering who must have send me this.

I suddenly heard a knock at my door .I opened to find Ted standing out.

“Get in “I said.I noticed dark circles around his eyes which signifies he hasn’t slept much.

“I am sorry ,I forgot your birthday”he lamented.

I gave out an amused laugh”No worries Ted, I did forget it myself”.

He sat on my bed looking down.

“I promised your dad I will take good care of you,but I just don’t know how?”he looked at me with pleading eyes.

I sat next to him.It is ok Ted you are a wonderful friend and a brother.These words were really heart felt.

He gave me a piercing stare which shook me off my roots.He got up suddenly managed to take his wallet from his pocket and left it on my desk stating “buy something for yourself”and hastily rushed out of the room.

I glared at the purse examining its contents ,I don’t want his money but my inquisitiveness got hold of me.I found a bundle of notes, a debit card and a driving licence .I stared at little Ted ,he was adorable at 18 ,mushy hair.It was then something startled me”Today was his birthday too”.

Suddenly I saw someone’s shadow at my window ,which disappeared within a fraction of a second.I must be imagining things.

I gasped, how deprived and lonely he must have felt without a family. Enough for today,I cant take it anymore .I fell on pillow and drifted into dreamless sleep.

Next day in college was uneventful.Rae and Cally pestered me with queries when I disclosed them about my endeavour with trainer carefully excluding the fact I already know him.

“you touched his hand,how was it heavenly?”Rae asked .

“Just like anybody else”I cajoled.”you know he has an girlfriend and they are engaged.”

“yes offcourse a snorty looking girl.”Cally grunted.

Abhi’s place looks deserted.

I had to meet Mike in order to ask him repair our car.I am tired of travelling in bus.I waited outside his class with Cally and Rae who were waiting impatiently for Mike and gasping as any cute guys pass .

Someone knocked my head from behind,”what is my mango doing here?”he asked.

“Mike,It hurts”I retorted.

As we were speaking someone called out to me”Amy”

I turned around to find myself facing a gorgeous looking girl, I swivel around to see if she was calling me.

I was puzzled,” do you know me?”I inquired.

“heard a lot about you,always wanted to meet you dear”she chirped with  a cheerful note.

“can I please know who you are?” I asked.Cally bleated “She is Sid’s girlfriend”.

“Don’t call me like that I have my own identity .I am Vriksha. Not that I don’t like him but it kind of makes me feel inferior”she said smiling kindly.

“She is not snorty” I whispered.”yes, she is so goodlooking”Rae sighed.

“why don’t you girls have lunch with us?” she suggested.

“Sure”my friends agreed in chorous before I could deny.

Sid came out of the class looked at me with awe.Vriksha kissed him on the cheeks.I looked away.

She nudged me,clasping her hand with mine.However I tried I was not able to hate her.Wow,can my life be more screwed up.

I was about to sit next to vriksha whereas my friends sat on either side of Mike who was uncomfortably twitching.On one side of Sid sat Vriksha and other Anitha was about to sit .

“Anitha,why don’t you get us some water,”vriksha asked.

“Please Amy,sit next to Sid .Anitha is trying to steal him from me, I don’t trust anyone other than you please,don’t tell no.”she requested with pleading eyes.

I wanted to deny,but I cant refuse her. Within seconds I started liking her dearly.I moved towards Sid and sat next to him.

I gulped hard .I found him stiffen uneasily in his chair.Vriksha murmured a thanks smiling.I smile back weakly ,neither me nor Sid was able to eat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unbounded 20

My love, you aren’t mine anymore

This cant be true, It must be a daydream I suppose or perhaps just a hallucination which might have been an consequence of my vivid imagination .

Everything seems surreal more like a wish being granted, so beguiling that I can’t rely on the genuineness of the vision provided by dear own eyes, but cant deny I have terrific senses that  closely resemble a vampire in its precision but now I just can’t trust them.

Contradictory to my apprehensions here he is, my trainer, captivating as always with the same charisma and concomitance he had on me at our very first meeting as a result red boxing gloves never cease to send a shiver down my spine.

His appearance hasn’t altered any. Snowy pale skin ,perfect nose, wicked grin which could coerce any maiden lose her resolve on virginity. His six foot stature ,wide shoulder and the muscular body beneath his loose shirt, his eyes, his dreamy brown eyes how in the world I hate?I hate the effect it has on me.

I stare into his eyes to find his imploring mine, a glare of grave despair soon replaced by a twinkle.I shudder in his fixed glare but my eyes denied to look elsewhere.

My stare averts as Abhi calls out to me.

I look away ,realising that I was gawking at trainer for so long. A thousand questions implode my head ,but there was something I want to ask him above all if he could witness the same as I could ,my trainer’s presence.

but emotions and multitude of thoughts intercept my words.All that I able to do is to hiss in Abhi’s ear”who?”

he smiles”My brother Sid”.

I gave out an exasperated sigh.

“full name please ?”I plead completely filled with remorse hoping this shouldn’t be my trainer ,this should be someone who resembles him.I am just over him now ,he just can’t appear out of nowhere to break my heart now.

“Shyam Siddarth” he replied tattering my heart in strands of joy or sorrow I cant tell perhaps both.

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Trainer indeed Sid briskly walked towards me ,composed as he ever has been without a merest attempt to avert his glare from me, extended his hand “Hi, you are Abhi’s friend I hope, nice meeting you ,Can I please know your good name?”

I shrug terrified, dumbstruck reluctantly slid my hands to his sending a jolt of electricity through my veins. I can sense that magic ,the connection I haven’t felt with any other man. I desired to shout at him with my deepest frustration  but I blurted out “Amy” which was merely a whisper.

“nice name” he remarked with his pleasant good natured smile.He had the ease of a well bred gentleman whereas Abhi was good but doesn’t care about others feelings perfectly unlike me I am just an overgrown kid.

My heart bellowed in grief, he doesn’t remember me at all .I loved him for nothing, he screwed up my life and now looks at me like a stranger.I felt my world tumbling down in shreds.

I managed a plastered smile ,though misery cuddled my emotions, a pang of disappointment barricaded my heart reminding myself again I must have been just an another girl who would ever remember a plain looking girl like me and does strike out the option of love.

I pulled off my hand

“I have to leave “I said before my frustration and disdain could attack my tear glands.

Anitha circled around Sid with her gravest attempts to seduce him which he least noticed.

I walk away briskly with Abhi running behind me to keep up the pace.

I climb into Abhi’s Ferrari, even the fine features of  his exquisite car hasn’t induced a glee or a frail spike in my cheer for all that remain in my head my breath and soul was my Sid.

I turn back before we left to find Sid staring at us from far behind.

I give Abhi a false smile and an careless comment “WOW,what a lovely car”.

“Thanks” he mutters”I have better ones.”

It was enough for my Abhi for he was easily deceivable

“”how does my brother look?”he asks breaking the grave silence unaware of the turmoil beneath my eyes.

“Mmm” I answer uninterested “he looks good”.

“just good,girls go nuts behind him”he said with surprise.

“looks can be deceiving ,there can be a devil lurking behind. well Anitha finds him really attractive may be they are good together”I splurt out with pure disgust.

“No demon, I assure “Abhi said”he is an angel, perfect son a well known celebrity ,he is obviously a devil in music and boxing certainly makes me envy him .Anitha, poor girl .How can she be so insane for this whole world knows my brother is already engaged with his childhood sweetheart. I think by next spring they will be married.

“what?”I ask my heart sunk into depths of misery.Trying hard not to break down I ask”Isnt he young?”hoping he would tell me it was just a joke

“yes he will be only 21 next spring, but cant wait anymore because with this marriage our family will be one of the richest in the country.It is more like a business.She is the heir of a large fortune.”he laughed.

“Does he love her?”I asked with growing disappointment clearly understanding I don’t stand a chance with her,she can give him everything ,all I could give him is a burden called me.My daddy’s disgust and a dangerous life.

I envy the girl though I don’t know who she is.

“obviously,they are so much into each other”he grinned.

“good”I said gloomily. The impact these words had on me was colossal .I made up mind to forget him why does my heart rip apart when I hear about his engagement.

I look at through the window, the skies dampen, clouds heavy so is my heart.

 

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Unbounded 19

The cold winter breeze woke me up. I leered around , my bedspread muffled ,the books I read last night lay half opened half closed and obviously twitching between states heeding to the adjure of the wind. I am perhaps a pure mess .The grandfather clock led out its annoying shrieks which when I unknowingly counted, to my greatest misfortune turned out to be seven.

“I am late” A sudden realization whopped me.

I rushed out my house exactly fifteen minutes later swearing under my breath at the driver who had again taken a day off. As a matter of fact he takes almost every day off but granny never delays in paying him. I jog my way to the bus stand, tired I glanced at my phone just to find to my greatest dismay today was my birthday and nobody seemed to remember. It is not that prior years my friends pestered me  with wishes, none of my friends had ever remembered my birthday but it is the maiden my mommy and daddy forgot my birthday.

Well this did really send a seizure of grief, however by now I am used to their lack of concern .It has been several months since mom and dad spoke to me. I miss really them a lot or perhaps every second.

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The bus arrived, I clamped on to the bus clutching on the iron reel  for my dear life. The stupid old bus did somersaults on the road across potholes making me totally nauseous. At last I managed to find myself a place to sit. The lady next to me was loudly flirting with someone I can’t really help eavesdropping nor hold back my giggles.

“Flirting” the very word reminds me of my two new female friends in college. Rae and Cally. Both are behind Mike and I did promise to introduce them to my dear good innocent Mike. I must agree they are marching on a dangerous endeavour with their affection towards Mike. Mike detests girls on whole luckily I am an exception or may be just as Abhimanyu remarks I have very meagre traits of a girl.

I mounted down the bus and rushed to college but to my greatest surprise I find myself facing a huge crowd waiting with anticipation and excitement. I wondered loudly what is so special today .Cally ran to me with an expression of mixed smirk and excitement “Didn’t Abhimanyu tell you?”

“what?”,I asked.

“nothing,My brother Sid is coming” he said trying to muffle a laughter.

“Is your brother a movie star or celebrity ,he seem to have enormous amount of fans”I cried the excitement was catching hold me too.

“he is quite a celebrity, a singer, a pianist and a sportsperson” he chortled

“are you jealous” I smirked.

“To be frank I am”he admitted.

My friend Cally gleamed at him with deepest admiration .

“Abhimanyu is really so sweet”she cried.

“Oh dear Cally, only if I had met you before my girl friend ,I still would not have laid my eyes upon you”he smirked.

Cally marched away sadly stating “see you soon” .

“Don’t be so cruel Abi, you hurt her” I cried .

“I did the right thing I didn’t give her expectation ,making her understand she doesn’t have a chance is better ”he said as his phone rang.

“cruel boy” I shouted…expectation hurts he is right.

“I have a bad news ”he declared to the crowd “my brother is not coming today a little change in plans”.

Dismay clouded the faces. Everyone dispersed.

“I wanted to see your brother do you have a picture?”I asked.

“he will come in a day or so?”he said as his phone rang again.he smiled at his phone.

“Is it your girlfriend?”I asked . “why is that if one in a relationship he should only speak to his girl.It is a call from studio”.

I sat down at the bench under the chestnut tree whisking away the snow with my foot. Cally and Rae came and sat next to me, they had plans, they lured me dragging me off to cafeteria.

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Evening, I was a bit murk, you cant help being gloomy when your own parents forgot your birthday. I was waiting for world’s busiest man Abhimanyu because he promised to drive me to bus stand .The college now thinks we are a couple but close friends know we are just friends and how I crave to see Abhi’s girlfriend.

In Abi’s opinion with me around he can ward away annoying girls. So,I am more like a straw man in paddy field. But I can never deny Abi is a remarkable friend.

It would have been rather pleasant to wait it wasn’t snowing this hard. The snow glistened, I am half covered with heaps of snow. I love this climate. I stared at the snowing sky asking god where is my birthday gift from you.

Suddenly a faint music resonated in my ears bringing me back to my senses. My soul vibrated with the chords, the strange connection, my heart thumped hard. For the first time in my life I loved music. The music which was always disturbing today seemed divine.

 My eyes moistened, my body was responding to the music .It was strange and heavenly the tune slowly deepened in my senses such that everything  around me turned invisible. The pain of my heart intertwined with the music here I sat enchanted.

I was weeping, before I knew what happened I set out in search of the place where the music erupted .I followed the trail of music like a bee bewitched by it aura. The feelings of my heart churning in, dispelling into the symphony. The music stirred the realm of my soul rendering me dumbstruck .Like a kid running towards its mother, I was enticed by the strange familiarity.

I was stirred back to my senses by the haughty conceited girl of senior year. She was shouting at me that I stomped on her.Well, I wasn’t bothered, she was scolding me but nothing can divert me from finding the source of music.

“Sorry” I muttered whereas she was not ready to leave me alone.

“She told sorry Anitha, leave her alone” Abi’s voiced reverberated through the staircase.

She moved away arguing. I gratefully asked him with my eyes filled with awe “Did you play the music ?”

“no my brother did,just for an ambience. Happy birthday Amy my dearest friend.”he shouted gleefully extending the largest bouquet of roses I have ever witnessed in my life.

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“Thanks”I cried with happiness.

Above the flowers,my eyes treaded on the person before me.

My heart skipped a beat.

Shyam,my trainer.

There he stood in skin and flesh my trainer.

 ps.please do tell if there is any mistakes it has been really long since I wrote something.

 

 

you would never know

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you know I have been walking

alone for long,

the alleys we strolled together

now creepers crawl along,

 

 

The cold wind gushes through my clothes

instilling memories ,that I taught myself to abandon

 

 

The fate, a mischievous cupid

perfectionist in messing with my heart

rendered your presence in my tranquil life

made me an absurd cretin

 

 

you painted the scarlet heart

made my heart beat stop

 

 

Stony way down the hill

where we first met,

sweat caressed, you bumped on me

making me lose my grip

 

 

my heart bet for you ever after,

Did I know? did I ever imagine

I would fall for those flawless smiles

And vindictive charm

 

 

Haughty you was ,never did you apologize

winter passed ,summer came

the monsoon swirled …

but you still remained in my heart

 

 

With you I walked like alone in rain

rain drops caressed your flawless skin

like pearls ,naughty smile on your lips

we turned kids loitering in rain….

 

 

I have to go I cried

I curse you catch a cold you laughed

stayed awake all night

not outta cold ,lovesick kid I was

 

you stand there

without merest idea

all my pen does is scribbling your name

my poems all had you in it

 

 

you would never know, I swear

never my love,

Today I walk alone

in those fern twirling path

cuddled in memories

 

 

I know, a word you will be here

but I will never tell….

about miles I walked

just to catch a glimpse of you

 

 

Tears caress my cheeks…

you wiped it without

a fragile idea you were the reason behind

I shout to world

but you will never know you were the one

 

 

Now the broken dreams

and tattered heart

paints your memories in nature’s refuge

love is insane, so am I