Introspections of a pointless mind

When self realisation hits you hard. textgram_1530780323

Resolves I take

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Reality and the world spun by my mind

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Lessons taught by life

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Hearing to songs turns me like this

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Self motivation

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Smitten by books

 

 

When I missed my granny

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When you realise world ain’t paved with roses

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Random muses of perplexed mind

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Expelling the darkness within through pen

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Gathering myself from chasm of depression

 

 

These are the ramblings of my heart going through varied turmoil of emotions past few months .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Father’s Day -Being a dad.

images (62)It’s fathers day and what you do is cordially shake the hand of your dad and wish him a happy Father’s Day. All those words you want to tell him, how much gratitude you feel towards him, all those things which overwhelms your heart remains buried in the shambles of a handshake.

Relationship with dad.

Most of the time the relationship we have with dad is quite different from that with mom. Dad mostly doesn’t have time to hear all the ramblings of our heart like mom does. But with him by our side every problem dispels. When everything goes wrong in life I tend to call dad.

Emotional support

I have gone through few hard phases of my life with some unfaithful friends. Anguish and tinge of depression outlining my feeble mind. I call up-to my dad and ask him what shall I do?

He asks me to do what I want, even to return home if I can’t take it anymore that too when he had lost his job. But my dad didn’t rear a coward who would run away just because of few unfaithful friends. He has taught me to fight and to raise above all odds.

Yelling game

I yell at dad, our opinions conflict most of the times. Most of the kids are scared of their dad. I fear, not of his anger but of his dissapointment. I am scared if I don’t live upto my daddy’s expectations.

My dad was there to hold on to everytime my steps faltered. I failed more number of times in my goals than any other daughter would . It might be because I dream too big, dad never curtailed my dreams. I have heard about parents who flinch in the face of educating their daughters. I have a dad who told me to do my masters when he didn’t have a single penny in his hand and we were struggling to make the ends meet. So I am exceptionally grateful.

He knows it all

My dad doesn’t prefer me writing. As you all know if one takes writing as a career the possibility one would end up starving is extremely high. He bought me Harry Potter and at a point he severely warned me I should stop reading and writing completely. Can’t blame him, my obsession towards books is too high. Dad always knows what his little girl wants. If I desire for something I needn’t ask him I want it. It would be on my table the following day.

I wanna tell dad just one thing

I love you dad. I am lucky you are my dad. I know we are your world. But Dad we know how much you have sacrificed for us. I simply know our happiness is all you need. Life may be hard dad, it has never been easy. you are my strength. You may think you are old, but in my eyes you are the same superhero who is strongest in the world, let years pass but you are my superhero. And you will ever be the best dad in the world.

Happy Father’s Day my dearest super hero.

Dreams.

I can hear laughter,

People are mocking at me,

They hate me,

Moron they call me.

 

They stare like I am a lunatic

Like wires of my head are hanging broke

They make faces,

As if I don’t exist here.

 

I am suffocating

Can’t breath, dying with every step.

Don’t feel like I belong here

In the first place

 

Depressed and demotivated

Broken beyond repair

Uncertain, am I really dwelling in a dream land?

Far away from reality

 

But I no more do care,

My future is still ain’t written,

I am penning the best

The tale of my life.

 

Boring, they called me

Walking through the world of dreams

Dodging in self speculation

Still my dreams that you call unattainable

 

Ain’t so far away,

Thank you world bullying me

You did teach me

Calling me a loser

 

Made me pull myself,

Gather myself,  anger is the key.

Tears fueled the onset of my dreams

I learned to pick myself up.

 

I need no world to accept me

Never want to be loved.

For you taught me to love myself,

Tomorrow is my day.

 

Grab it, time will be in my favour,

Ain’t give up,

Tired of falling down,

Walk for you know you can do it.

 

This is the moment

Get up, it is time.

Break the barriers, shed the uncertainties

It’s time to fly.

 

It’s time to feel the sunshine,

Breath the fresh air,

I have made mistakes,

I strike it out, tossed it out to dustbin

 

Starting in a new page,

No one would write it for you

Let it in, the magic of life.

Let the pen slide, do the unspoken

 

Do the unthinkable

For its your life,

Unattainable, still it’s your dream

Though people call you are done

 

Though you are poor,

World call you are quite impossible ,

All the tears are never gonna be waste,

Your anger, your fire is all you need.

 

Start working

Success ain’t far

For you know you can

Let’s prove the world wrong once more.

 

 

 

 

 

Tackling depression

At times life may not have a pull or an urge to pursue further.
The very place you dwell  might just be infested with hatred filled people who make sure your life is a living hell . Almost every soul around you hates you.

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Things you do may take an unfavoured turn or you might perceive that you are a lot cause. Your heart tend to be heavy that moreover like an iron weighing a ton has been fastened around your heart.
There might always be fear or anticipation for life ahead.

Depression, stress and anxiety might be devouring you alive. You would want to weep out aloud. You might be demotivated, succumb to the feeling that you are never gonna make it.You might feel like quitting .

Perhaps you might feel useless, wasted and exhausted

Nobody seems to understand, nobody cares, death might appear as an easier option
and when tide is not our favour.

The thing that will get you going in the hardest of times
Just

Think of  your family  how much you mean to them….you are loved and forever will be

We always quarrel with our family.And might disagree with the point of views of our siblings or parents but no one can deny your family loves you the best. images (38).jpeg

The so called Friends (acquaintances)

And people around you.Those double faced chameleons, ask them to screw themselves. Please, they do you no good, however hard you act,trying to remain tranquil and pleasant, they aren’t going to pleased. We always incline to be over cautious about other people’s opinions . Those blank headed warts, they are never going to think good about you . So don’t give a damn. I am going on preaching this and still do. For god sake live for yourself.

“Successful people don’t have friends “-Sheldon Cooper

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Whatever I do go wrong, may be I am a lost cause

Perhaps things are not in your favour today

Panicking is never going to provide you a solution . Just analyse the problem after detoxifying your brain from the malignant affliction called stress. Stressed is an excuse you give to your imbalanced self. Just relax. This is not the end of world

“nothing is impossible under the sun”

nothing is impossible even above it, with present technology even that is possible.

Let me tell you a truth.

I am a person who panics for no particular reason and my dad will be like

Dad:”So do you think it is a valid reason to be panicked? ”

Me:”no but I am tensed”

There are bigger problems in the world, neither the richest nor the poorest is happy.

Venting out your feelings to someone you trust might help a lot.

tomorrow is yet an another new beginning.Things are surely going to get better.

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Successful people never give up. Hope is always the answer.

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Insane love

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In a self imposed confinement

he remained

Until she unfurled his madness.

 

Insane her eyes drew cold

He remained reticent

The darkness which once awed

Now solely induced tenebrosity

 

The darkness of the room

Held a contour of pain.

Unknowing he smiled

At a lunatics uphevel

 

The winter nights drew

The stains of blood remained

At times he did wonder

From which yonder these droplets erupt

 

Eerie it was

Indeed blind in love he was

Until the very night he saw

Her teeth immersing into the raw flesh

 

Astonished he watched

Her teeth devouring his flesh

For he wished to warn other suitors

The female cannibal on prowl

 

Too late he was a ghost.

The girl knows how to hunt

He reckoned ,slowly whisking his flesh which outlined her cheeks

Love is insane indeed.

 

People would reckon it as love

I would rather yell

Hey you lame idiot

Was your brain rotting

When she made you a nutter all over?

 

A selfish woman’s day wish

My post and picture doesn’t adhere much anyways

I would like to wish happiness and joy to all the women in the world ….

Stop. …stop. ..stop not all the woman.

I would like to extend my warm hearted wishes to the wonderful women out there but let me get this straight…. But not to everyone.

If you were good and nice to me please omit the below section….

Certain bitches… No wishes for you… Let your life rot, hope you go to hell…. And let this year be so worse that you should think every second why am I born as a girl. ….

You filthy scum bags, you are the reason why world generalise woman as manipulative and egoistic. Just because certain women treats guys like shit and throws them like scrap away and puts on a whole lot of drama.

Speaking of drama, I love theatre but not these tantrums thrown out by these scrawny bitches. I wish a hell of women’s Day for the woman who made my life pretty bad.

My ex roomie… First place because  its like stack, last in first out. I hate you filthy egoistic thrash. Seriously you b-hexa i did you nothing wrong. But you treated me like shit. I have an unflinching desire to immerse a heeled shoe on your face.

The set of girls who made my life nothing worse than living hell. I actually don’t remember your name because I did delete you from my brain but the scars remain…. So if a dung ball fall on your head don’t panic. It will be I who planted it over your head.

My dearest pinnochio nosed aunts

I know I am ugly, I don’t want you to compare my looks with my perfect cousins .All those perfect girls with perfect curves. I prefer brains to beauty and I am happy as I am. I don’t want you to lament on my looks anymore. Go to hell you edgy gossipheads.

There are lot of women. Who made me feel nothing greater than shit.Made me endure a series of depression.This did make me strong and independent. Well wish the above mentioned people a worse life filled with sorrows and misfortune  ..men actually never bothered me.I respect them for that.

My heart felt wishes for woman out there

Who made me smile, who taught me to strive, who kindled the fire in my heart.

My wishes to the woman who dreams

Not for those who belittles her dream because she is a woman.

My wishes for the woman who strive for a change, for the one who is a change.

For one who gives her food to her hungry kid cheating her stomach.

One who strives all day and night

One who works in office by day and home by night.

One who is lost behind  the kitchen smoke dwells in its shadows

For all the single mothers out there.

For all the moms who speak to dads on behalf of their kids.

For every girl who spreads her smile.

For every girl who walks out of her house with a stranger her parents chose.

For every woman writer who pens the strength

For every woman who have accomplished ,and for every woman who tried to be accomplished.

For everyone woman who has the grit to try what people tell is beyond her reach

To my mom my strength, my sisters(arent woman yet-just children….future woman) above all my granny who is up there in heaven smiling over my follies.

To all the women out here in WordPress . If you are in WordPress if you are reading my work… You can’t be bad. I will always love you.

As far as I know almost all the women I know in WordPress are big sweethearts at times too strong willed and indeed too kind hearted and supportive .

I wish you all the happiness and a hearty woman’s day wishes.

Ps:i am a bit rude, this is who I am…bear with me….

Loads of love

Anagha M

Beauty

Beauty, thy world’s greatest

I’d tell it’s her,.

The soft brown curls

Cascading down her shoulders.

 

Her alluring honey brown eyes.

Tiny freckles

festoon the corner of her lips

As it curves into tidly smile.

 

Her amiable heart

Enriches her like the an exquisite jewel.

Adding lustre to her

already shimmering self

 

My heart falters at her smiles

It tatters at her tears

She is the celestial beauty

Destined to be mine.

 

Never in the face of earth

Has never been a maiden

More beautiful than her.

She is none other than my mom.

 

With love your daughter

Anagha M

 

 

Her eyes

He waited until the sun sinked low,

The flowers lowered thier mighty crown,

The lonely nights of silent desolation.

Heart nay had a tiniest ray of happiness.

 

The lonely path, deserted now,

In a park bench he sat

Eyes set out the wide deserted road

Waiting every dawn, every dusk.

 

The years rolled off,

But he did wait,

As winter chimed in and left

As summer played and left.

 

He waited for those lovely eyes

That sparkled and enticed his lonely life

He waited to be by her side.

An eternity passed she never turned by

 

One rainy night,

The thunder roared and lightening sizzled

His waiting did come to end.

In the grave next to his dearest one he lay.

 

 

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